smells like chaos

i’m tired and my life is like crazy. i fell happy even if i know everything around me does not make sense, i’m working a lot (as always), drinking tones of coffee, occasionally buying shoes, searching for colors in everything around me, fighting with my semi-idiotic relationship, hiding my fears and hating fake people around me. i feel like running into a circle with a big smile on my face, needing therapy or maybe just 2 days at the seaside with a tequila sunrise next to me, waves, sun and nothing else…